Top 5 Wednesday: Somber

Here we are again, Cabbages!

Actually, since this weekend I’ve been thinking about putting up a list of 25 facts about yours truly but due to my workload, I haven’t gotten around to pondering about the content of that “list”.

Anyway, the time has come for me to once again do the TOP 5 WEDNESDAY! Are you excited? Me too! I’ve prepared my choices for today’s topic during the last week of March! I was able to do that because the topics for the entire April is posted in the Goodreads page prior to the end of March. So, for those of you who aren’t familiar with this “bandwagon” yet, all you have to do is come up with your own list pertaining to the topic set for that week. You can post it on your blog/webpage or in YouTube, then copy the link to the group page in goodreads so other participants  can view your T5W!

This week is dedicated to the Top 5 books I’ve read that covers hard topics, such as Rape, Bullying, Drug & Alcohol Abuse, Suicide, etc. As I have mentioned in my previous post, I have a thing for melancholy reads, and most of those kinds involve such topics. One of my favorite books, All the Bright Places, deals with one of the heaviest growing problems of the young generation today. Personally, I think it’s good that books with themes like this are being published, because it helps society understand and become more knowledgeable about such happenings.

Just to give you an overall insight, the books I’ve chosen dealt with sexual abuse. Please keep that in mind before you consider reading any of them.

5. HOPELESS by Colleen Hoover

This was my first Colleen Hoover novel, one of my College friend’s favorite book. Surprisingly, the revelation in this book caught me off-guard. My experience with this wasn’t as life-changing, but it was definitely gut-wrenching. To put a personal touch in this brief post, when I was reading this book at 2 am in the morning ’cause I couldn’t sleep and there was a black-out due to a typhoon; having a strong imagination, I pictured the narrated rape scene in this and I was just at loss of words to describe what I was feeling right that moment.

4. MALICE by Danielle Steel


[original quotation, photo taken from Google]

This has a resemblance to the plot of Hopeless, but this is an Adult novel and the premise goes all the way to when the protagonist is already a woman. When I was starting to fall in love with reading, most of the available books we had at home were adult novels, written by Danielle Steel and Sydney Sheldon. Though I’ve read this when I was already in college, I couldn’t deny that this book left a big impact in my life, especially as a grow closer to womanhood. The way the author wrote the experiences of Grace from the hands of her abuser was just hard-hitting and definitely depressing. If I’m being honest, it haunted me quite longer than I would have liked.

3. FAULT LINE by Christa Desir

[original quotation, photo taken from Google]

 This book, after finishing this book, it left my mind messy; I couldn’t even come up with words. The sexual abuse in this is downright cringe-worthy, I couldn’t get over it quickly. It was hauntingly realistic. Despite the poor reviews on goodreads, I liked this book. I’ve learned that a rape victim is forever changed; either become guarded to help deal with the trauma, they’re extra cautious and extremely paranoid; or they close-off in such way that they no longer know how to connect with people, they become reckless and desperate. But what others fail to understand is that, it’s not about how it affected you, because the important truth of the matter is, you will never be the same; the dreadful memory becomes your personal nightmare.

2. LIVING DEAD GIRL by Elizabeth Scott

I have a calling for dark and tragic reads, so here, one of the most emotionally scarring novel I’ve come across. This is about a young girl who was abducted and given a new identity only to be continuously molested. In my last year in college, we were asked to put up a story-telling of some sort; we were to write or memorize a speech about a theme chosen by the group we were with. Since we were in an exclusive school for girls (another way of saying, we’re feminists in our own terms), sexual abuse was the most fitting topic. The other members chose pieces from the internet, while I opted to write a narrative about this. Writing it, I felt like I was actually Alice; every word made my skin crawl.

1. WHAT WE SAW by Aaron Hartzler

[original quotation, photo taken from Google]

Maybe those who have read the Living Dead Girl  and this novel would disagree with my arrangement. To be honest, it’s almost a tie between the two, but hear me out okay? I didn’t put this in the number 1 spot because it was better than the other, but rather because of how much this bothered me. Again, most will disagree because the premise of this isn’t realistic but that’s why it’s so bothering–imagine it in the real world, put yourself in the book. Knowing the truth, but having no one believe you; and keeping what you know, the ugly truth, in the dark. Cast yourself as one of the people in the basement; I mean, it’s always easier than becoming the actual victim simply because nobody who’s never been raped can understand the extent of hurt one can feel after being put in such fateful experience. But truth? I think it’s just as hard and grieving whether you’re the victim or merely a silent witness. Definitely, different endeavor for the two situations but it’s a struggle nonetheless.

I had a hard time composing this post, I wouldn’t dream of this happening to me or to anyone else. To those who have been a victim, whether rape or sexual harassment, my heart goes out to you. Please remember that you are NEVER at fault with what happened.

Well, Cabbages, hope you’re all enjoying your day! I shall be back next week for a new Top 5 Wednesday post! As always, thank you for taking the time to read my blog and I apologize if it’s not well-written. Disclaimer, the pictures are not mine and the quotes are from the books, unless stated otherwise.

Oh, if anyone is interested in reading my College narrative for the Living Dead Girl, kindly leave a comment below and I will post it on here.



2 thoughts on “Top 5 Wednesday: Somber

  1. Haven’t read any of these but they sound really interesting. If you like these kind of stories, I’d recommend Silence by Natasha Preston. It’s a contemporary but deals with heavy topics 😛


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